March 2011
1 post
February 2011
1 post
uh,
fml
March 2010
1 post
February 2010
2 posts
well
Home alone again. I think I hate being alone, but I hate being around people. Its quite confusing. My stomach has been hurting all day. Anyways. So there is this TV show that reminds me a lot of my own life. Oh minus me being a complete hard ass. But yeah, the show has been my life for the last week. I wish I could explain how i felt about everything. But I cant. All i know is that I cant seem to...
January 2010
3 posts
chin up
If i can explain how hard ive been trying to keep my chin up, then all i could say is i have been breaking my neck to keep it up. yes that is a copeland ref. they get me. why does everyone who gets me have to be so far away and so out of reach. i have been trying so hard. sometimes i think she really likes me and i get scared and run away a bit. sometimes i think she hates me and i push her...
I'm like Geodude sometimes.
silkpanties:
I’ll be in an amazing mood, and then I’ll somehow find a way to over think certain aspects of my life and just completely destroy my good mood.
I need to stop self-destructing; it hurts everyone involved and you still never win. >:|
(On the other hand, I do like how I seem to have a video game reference for every occasion in my life!)
story of my life.
fdfkl
Sitting alone. Smoking cigarettes. Sipping on caffeine free pepsi. staring at all the artwork on the wall. listening to some of my favorite music. im okay with it all. been feeling better. just wish things would fall more into place. ive had a few pretty good days lately, but still have a small hole in that thing in my body i call a heart. i owe it all to you. thanks for leaving my life i guess....
December 2009
1 post
November 2009
3 posts
greensboro
straight posting this post while posting in greensboro. having a good time. hating that my acid reflux is fucking with me so much. missing some people really hard though right now. dont wanna leave but cant wait to be home. stoaked on seeing em. Tryna chill with joeyx dad tomorrow. that should be some fun fun fun. cant not wait to meet em. well out for now tryna go cover party in the usa with...
uggh
I have been in the worst of moods lately. I have came to the realization that i have to hardest times coping with my feelings. I cant handle my emotions to save my life. I like something but i wont fall for it. I fall for it and i wont take it. I seem to hate something but cant break it. I am the definition of a fucking hot mess right now. Happy is a far out emotion that I’m almost positive...
October 2009
4 posts
Listen
aaaaaahh
i wish someone somewhere would feel the way i feel. just so we could have a conversation and they would maybe get me. but its safe to say im not sure anyone here understands. i think they dont understand because i cant explain. but if that one person just felt the same way. we would be on the same page. and then we could write a book about why we are so miserable. i just cant do it by myself....
the last few days.
have been filled with amazing things such as
September 2009
15 posts
<3
Bfflz = excellent night
danny
kurt
alexxx
joey
ph
cvmills
cookout creeps
tbell parking lot
moshvan/moshcair
newports
excellent night.
Today is almost over.
So i forgot my shades but my eyes couldnt stop crying. Ive never seen so many kids cry so many strong people. People i thought were so full of hate they didnt even know what crying was. But they did. Thats what he did to everyone. No matter if you were the strongest most mean bad ass in town. Dj created a small whole inside everyone and filled with nothing but love. Everyone talks all this shit...
come tomorrow.
Not even about trying to go to a funeral tomorrow. Worst past couple days. Better bring my shades tomorrow. Ill probably be crying up a storm. So tired bout to crash on a floor in the best friends apartment. Me and that floor don’t get a long to well ugh. God.
Fuck em, Fuck em, Fuck em.. FUCK em!
Fuck stupid people. I don’t understand how people could ruin something as amazing as Have Heart. People need to go back to their fucking roots and throw down in a game of fisty cuffs and stop trying to fucking pull out knives and fucking guns. Its bull shit. Cowards fucking cowards. Im not hard by any fucking means but if I have a problem ill either give the ass beating or fucking take it...
sleep = lesbian
ahhh
I cant sleep.. too many things on my mind. wishing i was though because i know come tomorrow ill be hating life. but i guess that isnt any different from any other day. oh yeah and by the way. i miss you. my brains hurts from thinking of you too much. bullet to the brain should stop that. but im too scared. im too scared to do anything that would be good for me.
and I thought the other night was bad..
So I went to bed last night thinking tomorrow is going to be a good day. I awoke with the world once again letting me down. My little brother woke me up with tears in his eyes telling me our good friend DJ got stabbed the night before and didn’t make it through the night. I couldn’t quite grasp what he was teling me because I was still half asleep, hoping I was still alseep, hoping it was a...
night.
I had an okay day but a terrible night. i took and oath to not speak for 3 months because a person is coming to visit who is actually worth me talking to yet i broke that vow tonight in a car with someone who means a lot more to me than they realize. I have a few friends who are mad at me because i didnt hang out with them and i have a girl who is furious with me because i cant seem to figure...